Going wild

I'd like to think they all are very nice people. As in, ET and loong. Extreme jokes aside, they didn't mean all that, and they're actually flexible. Potential bros for life. One of the reasons I'd like to stay in this country.

I'm craving things again. Yeah. Terrible me. What can I do? Sometimes, I think, I'm almost done with studies. I just need to go through a couple times, and I can get ok results. Exclude math, of course. One of the reasons I allowed myself to get seduced to go for another night out. The hard part is my dad.

It's cool to know, he believed me. He believed me when I said there's four of us and they're very great peeps, we badminton every fri and we're that close. He's just worried about the evil outside. Robbers, psychos. Who'd try to kidnap me or anything. For that Idk how to feel.

You're a good dad. Maybe not a very good boss, but good dad.

I remember how you disliked me going badminton with about five to six boys, that was like four years ago. And we just wanted to badminton in the morning or afternoon. I went anyway.

I remember how you objected my first time out of home after 12am with wood. The day we got together. The very last day of 2014 to countdown. But then you still let me go.

I remember how, I got back later and later each date with wood. I even reached home at 1am plus, and you didn't even scold me or anything.

I know I'm a bad kid for drinking behind you like that. I know I'm a bad kid for liking the things I'm doing but I'm not supposed to be too over.

I'll always remember this. But please, trust me that I'll be safe. If bad guys approach, ET can fight, right? We all can. And it's probably not possible. We're gonna live long. They have to live for another sixty six years, as promised. Moon has to die after me which is I duno when too. So we will be safe, and we will be ok. Even if I don't know my limit, they know. This is one thing I noticed after that Saturday. ET would stop knocking my glass. Loong would take glass by glass for me, moon too, would do that. They're very nice peeps.

I will live, and stay safe, as a responsibility towards you. I will pass A2, I will get a job and treat them back, and feed you and mom. I will survive this shit, so please. The reason I am alive, is just you guys, and all my awesome friends. So fuck this shit.

I will go wild, I will go have fun. And returning safely is definite.

Unless, one day I really decided to die. (Which is not very possible?? My heart can't possibly break when it's not even whole to start with hahaha)

I'm sorry that loving badminton changed me this much. But loving badminton gave me a life. No regrets.

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