ET

There's a lot happening yesterday. It was BH's baby's full moon, almost all of us went. I drove. That was not a mistake but it was a mistake.

ET are you going?
Partly because he wouldn't give a firm answer. Partly because moon's plans changed afterwards. I was thinking too much by myself, and that wouldn't help the situation. There would definitely be round 2, honestly. We all probably knew, but... I thought Moon would be there. I can drive a short distance home. But all isn't well. Leave at 8.30pm? So I'd be driving back alone. So I wouldn't be joining round 2?

I made a call. Mom said they'd be going ipoh right away and wanted me to join. But there were plans. The night and the next day. They did let me go. But how could they let me go if they see me leaving the car here and going out again? Honestly I felt bad. But I do want to stay and practice guitar too for these few days. I felt bad for not following. But I do have stuff to do and rush. Grade 8 aren't easy. I want to stay home. I hate changing plans. If I planned to leave in the morning. I'd hate to go at night too tho. It's not wanting second round, it's not wanting badminton the next day. It's combined facts and reasons, I just don't wanna.

"She's emo after a call. What's wrong? Speak."
I just went back and took beer. There's nothing wrong with me. I feel bad. Idk if I should choose what's right or what I want. Then I had an idea which is leaving it at the mosquito park. Then ET get cinnamon to her car, then usual plan. He approved tho.

Cinnamon followed my car. There was a tiny almost-accident. I followed ET's car near behind back. A car in front of him emergency braked. So he emergency braked. So I emergency braked. At that high speed, on the highway, and a complete brake. Cinnamon was startled. I heard my heartbeat fast. The tyres screeched. Somehow I managed to not hit ET. I'm pretty worried about hitting him. Lol I don't want my first on-the-road accident happening on me by hitting a friend's car. We managed to reach home safely. Then I saw jazz not in the house. Where is jazz? Is sis out? Are my parents back yet? Did they went to Ipoh with jazz? How come? I did the wrong move by parking almera at the gate. But I did a call, we did an illegal turn back to park the car somewhere.

After dropping cinnamon.
ET talked to me. It was scary. Deep talks with ET are always scary, but it gets comfortable progressively. I'm sorry ET, for almost hitting your car. For making you and them unhappy with Moon. For causing you this much trouble. I could've just went home and went Ipoh. Then practice crazily when I'm back. I'm sorry for being such a trouble. I'm sorry Moon, too. For making this thing happen. He said when he emergency braked, he was expecting me to hit him already. It was a good thing I didn't. It was a good thing.. I actually like talking to him, one to one. It's comfortable. It's very wise. It's not the kind of talk he usually does. Not the funny funny full of random entertaining topics. It's serious, and it means something, a lot. I'm still very sorry for almost hitting your car.

Tavern 13. I was feeling bad. So V tapped my glass, ET tapped my glass. Moon then arrived, cinnamon then arrived. They look ok, so I guess I felt better. I did a wrong decision by mixing I guess. Drinking black then white. Should've sticked to black. We had round 3 at mamak. I was full AF. All isn't well. Stomach not really well. I'm sorry for making V blush by talking that way. Omg. Really sorry. ET sent me back. He told me to sleep but I didn't really. Just this one day, the entire day, I'm crazily annoyed at the presence of ME. And I'm 100% convinced, he's a really really nice guy. Nice guy. It's cool to know him. It's a blessing to get to know him, and this bunch of people. The whole bunch.

Sometimes, I'd hear political stories, I'd see some dark sides, some conflicts, actually loads of drama. But in this smaller group, there's still true bromance. Pure besties within the few. One of the favorite things I'd love to witness. And I love the fact that...... ET tells me things. Not about bullshit stuff, just whenever I ask, he tells me, and tells me to not spread these stuff. He tells me the political stuff, stuff that's too fucking hard to see through from the sugar coating act. He tells me what is real and what isn't to him. Hey I appreciate that. So much. A lot. It makes me tell him stuff too. Stuff that no one else in the whole squad knows. Stuff that I'm too embarrassed to tell but still did.

It's a long day today too. I woke up with a bad bad hangover. But I didn't wake up in the middle. Probably because I mixed. Oops. It was bad.

"Tell me if you two need a ride."
All the way to mk? So nice of you too, Loong.

"Drink something sweet, you'll feel better"
Thanks. I will. Haha. But... It was still bad so I took a nap. It was great that an hour nap got rid of the headache. Then ET said he'd be here in five mins. Whut. Here he goes teasing me again.
"I don't even..... "
"Don't even what? "
"Like him."
"Then why did you pause for 20secs ? "
Why did I?

Badminton is love. We went ming tien for food then badminton. This Loong is crazy. He ate a double portion. I ate single, same food and was so damn full to play. Pineapple too was damn full to play. We were both in a terrible form cuz I had a hangover and she was tired from loads of stuff. That catch up wasn't enough! But... Still I'm happy to have that. Very. Then we played single. After so many years, finally single. I can't believe I lost. Haha. Terrible careless mistakes. We were both tired AF. All is well.

The dinner then proved much more, bout the pure friendship I was talking about. I can't stop thinking. They're so sweet. Yeah. I'm pretty lucky to be listening the convo. Funny af but still, they could speak. Pan's training up my canto. He spoke canto all the time, and I just listened, processed. It was great that I understood almost everything. Really great. I can't believe I finished up Loong's portion. My metabolism was on fire so I was hungry fast, plus we sat there for such a long period. Whut. It was tiring, but I'm happy.

These two days, ET's been a life savior to me. So thank you bro. Thanks. Man. Thank you for not continuing the acts you put up when there's just us. That means a lot.

You're definitely a potential bestie.

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