Badminton is love

I played badminton for five hours again today. I fucking drove jazz. I'm fine AF. I wish I have Loong's tiny appetite. No wonder he's losing weight. Ugh. I need to reduce food consumption. Ffffff. I should eat ice instead.

Training then Loong squad. I guess this is like the only time I drive, cuz parents not around. Hmm. CBA. I missed this place. I don't miss the cashier at all. Oh and today is the first time I rewrapped the grip by myself. Wood used to do that for me. I guess I had to lose him to learn to do things by myself. I wrap okay. I don't miss him.

It was pretty tiring. My form wasn't too good. My drops were better right after abit of practice. Wow. It really makes huge difference. My drops were terrible for weeks. Few minutes of concentrating on dropping made obvious difference. Too good.

Then dinner. ET's closest circle was there. That was nice. But they play too much!!

How do you feel hanging out with us? Do you feel older? Do you feel more matured?
I duno. Maybe a little? I do feel older.

Let's exclude the liking alcohol part, it's good. I remember the times I had to think of something to make myself forget about the life I have. I remember when I had to read to escape reality. Now I read for fun. I badminton for fun, because I love to. Not to escape, just because I like to. And you guys are here. Because you guys are here.

The boys have one same channel they share. This game they play. They're always that antisocial after we eat. They'd just play. Omg.
ET said, join us!
HAHA. I thought about that. But I better don't.
Let's see what I'll do after guitar exam.

There is too much to rush. For now.

Updates: I have no idea about pooh drama. Then ck is still emo. ET seems to be accepting how shits go already. Yip man was pretty emo, are you still? Heh.

I can't believe I told you so much. Now I don't think there's anything you don't know about me. Backstab me and I'm finished, omg. But bro. I trust you! I don't think you will. You're like my diary, bro. HAHA. The tiniest craziest feelings, I let you know all. Believe or not, when the most craziest stuff bothers me and I couldn't blog about it, I tell you. Damn, look how much I love you. I even told you all the dramas in the squad

Yeah I feel old. Because I have this friend that I talk to. She talked to me when I broke up. Now I'm trying to help her. She said, I talk with more sense now. And she feels like getting to know older peeps instead of college kiddos.
"Wow is that a good thing?"
Yeah of course it is.
Does she badminton?
No, highschool bestie. Closest bestie.

I'm no good speaker. If you cry in front of me, I have no words. Maybe I can give you a hug, let you rant until you're happy enough. Maybe I can just stay there with you and... I'm not sure what to say, usually.
But it's a very cool thing to know, telling my own shits helped. Telling how my life went and how I got tru it, helped. This is how grateful I am rn.

Good to be home. I hope they all don't get drunk. I hope you all don't get drunk. Honestly I'm so not used to calling him just ck. It used to be ck Tina like whenever I told mom about who I'm with, I'd be like "ET Loong". Sed. I'm sorry that our kind let you down...

ET actually asked me.
"Do you love me more or Loong more?"
I love you both equally. Hahaha.
"I love you more." There he goes giving the fluttering face. HAHA. Crazy ass.

Be safe.

I'm a hapi kid.
I just hope I improve badminton more. Haih.

I'm not doing things well these days. Holidays, but guitar progress not as good as imagined. I didn't even touch violin oh fuck. I'm supposed to be on diet, keeping fit, make everything better before degree starts. I am, watching movies, reading books, I am trying to run. But uh let's forget the running part. Everything's just going okay, not good and not crazy awesome. I feel like a piece of shit parasite. I need to work, or get to degree. I need to get out more. Even tho I am already going out.... But it isn't right. I'm playing too much badminton and not doing anything else. That's wrong. I'm going to fall in love with hanging around with ET squad, then feel completely different and empty once degree starts.

Haih. Let's hope I get back on track to LIFE, soon. Soon!

Damn it.

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