A levels reuslts

I just got my A levels results. Last night after badminton I was already trying to check them. But they weren't released yet at that time. I thought, maybe it's the UK time zone. It's not the release date yet.

Idk how to describe my feelings rn.

I felt I might fail. I was so worried I might fail everything just like how I failed them all during trials. But I told myself, I wasn't prepared for trials. But was I prepared for A2? I was sick. I was sick when I stayed up every fucking night destroying my immune system, just to stuff all that knowledge firmly into my head. I did that halfway and I was down. Was I prepared for A2? I wasn't, too. I was prepared for bio, that's all. Maybe that's why, my bio for A2 was just 2 marks away from AS. This tells me that I can do better for AS. I could've gotten an A if I did better for AS.

I wasn't really strong at chem. All I can say is.... I definitely improved a lot. But that's not enough. But to think of it, I was physically half dead right afrer bio paper. I didn't have much hope for chem. So this result is supposingly satisfying. But another few marks I could've gotten a B. I did better than SPM tho. That's for sure.

Math? I always thought I'm failing math. But I didn't. Ok I almost failed it. I'm relieved I didn't get an ugly U. U means no marks given. Means less than 40. Means fail. I got a score. An ugly one, but at least I got one.

I meet the requirements to uni. It's not borderline meet. It's firm.

"Won't meet exactly but will exceed."
He said.

You were right. I exceeded. In average, I needed around 20 marks to fail each subject. My scores aren't close to failing. Why was I even so afraid of failing? Because of trials? Or getting sick for the entire month? I wish I can get back my paper. Wish I can see what I got wrong. Ugh. I wanna crai. I seriously thought I did so so bad for chem. It was fucking hard. Omg. Everything was hard. But chem paper made me want to die afterwards.

Thank you for having such confidence in me, when I didn't have it. Oh gosh thank you for believing in me.

Text us if it's good news, don't if it's bad news.
I hope I text you guys...

They're awesome peeps.

If I fail, I will see you guys next Wednesday.

I guess that's it......

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