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Maybe I have an issue. Maybe I have a seasonal mood swing. I honestly don't really know what's wrong with me. It's August it's just August. Maybe there's a time of the year I start being a useless shit. I should lock myself in my room and stop human interaction. There's always this period that all my drafts, my posts became a tiny fullstop. There's always this period...

I feel like I've been hurting people. I walk around, whenever I start to speak, I hurt someone. I'm starting to feel sorry for people around me. Why am I like this? I'm not supposed to be like this.

I spoke harsh to mom, to grandma. I get annoyed so easily. I felt like I'm starting to stop conversations. I last seened my bestie. I gave ine word replies to people that care about me. I scolded my friend. I was pretty unhappy with so many people. What is wrong with me???

Somehow I thought maybe I shouldn't go out anymore. I should stop hurting people with my shitty words. I should stop talking. Stop existing.

Ugh. I'm starting to think, if this moment I go for drinks I'd start cursing all the way. Just like I did on that day.

LA's supposed to help me. Seems like it's losing power.

I don't wanna fuck up my fist again just for someone unworthy like you.

That's like the meanest thing that's appeared in my head for so long, I'm glad I didn't say it out loud.

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