Going on trips

I wanna talk about the two places. Ok recently I've been to three places. Taiwan, Japan and Penang. I guess I already talked about the chaoticness in Taiwan.

Tbh...... It's always chaotic, wherever I go. There's always dramas, dramas, dramas. Japan, it would be aunt.

I remember when I was young, I always threw tantrums on her. I hated her very much, but I didn't remember why. After this trip, I remember.

She's a very straightforward and short tempered person. That sounds fine, right? But going on a trip depending on her, that's not fine. Of course, we all tried our very best to tolerate her, to ignore every mean thing she said. We tried to treat her right. To accept that she's just aged and grumpy. But I did said something mean back to her.

Living under stress wasn't pleasant at all. You can look at all the photos I've posted. The selfies, the smiles, getting lesser and lesser. I thought I was doing fine. I thought I could manage a week under someone like this. I remember, at the very day 7, my sister talked to mom loudly, warning her that we'd get scolded if we delay. I told sis, speak softer and dont let aunt hear us. She said, she wants to let her hear.

The very last day, she threw my book. And I said,
Do you think I bring my book for you to throw?
I remember stomping across the room to get it back, then blasting loud music in my earphones. The stomping was satisfying cuz Japan houses are made of wood.

I know, I did wrong. But I was really damn fucking pissed tho. You can treat me like shit, you can talk to me like a slave. But you do not touch my belongings. You don't treat my stuff like shit. I can accept the shit, but I won't tolerate when you treat them that way.

I'm pretty sure, somewhere I did said, Japan trip was finally over. In some ways, it's a relieve. I'm glad it ended. I'm glad I get my freedom back, and I could finally breathe without being alert that I might do anything wrong and get dissed in anyway.

Honestly, I really don't hate her. In many ways, I do know how to convince myself how to be okay when humans are being bitches. But well...... There aren't always great times.

How about Penang? There are smaller dramas. Dramas just within my own damn head tbh.

It's the gay couple. Five of us went to a trip. Me, shell, hoodie, class rep and his bf. It was pretty okay when everyone's energetic. But near the end of the trip, the couple was getting lazier and lazier. We bought a thirty ringgit bus pass, and we get a week of unlimited bus service. They started wanting to call Grab instead. Oh that's actually fine. You wanna waste money and drag all of us to do that with you guys, that's pretty fine. But then. There are five of us. I can't believe you're willing to lie and lie, and lie, put up a show, pretend that you never know the law. How would 19 year old teens not know the law? Plus you're even lying about your age. I'm pretty okay to go for Grab, but to lie about it just to save money from calling a six seated Grab? That's unethical. That's fucked up. You want to save money? Take bus, the one we all payed for at the first day of the trip. I can't believe it man... It's all tolerating the babies. The oldest ones act like the most immature ones.

They decided to exclude orange from the trip, just because she was whiney from the level of tireness we had from the last trip. I know, walking this much, is indeed tiring. I was tired too I just didn't make any noise. She did a tiny complain and she's out. I think the couple did much worse than she did. All she did was telling us that she has to rest. But the couples, they found an easy way out, to drag all of us down the unethical route. Which one's worse?

I'm pretty sure I had a mind full of thoughts, but I didn't really show. I don't think I can go out with gay couples anymore. I'm a terrible friend.

I dislike immature old kids treating me like a kid. But I know you're 9 years older than I am afterall, so I should definitely tolerate you like my aunt.

Maybe I'm just better going solo. Or an ever smaller group. Four girls is better than a gay couple plus two girls one guy. Or maybe I just couldn't tolerate the unethical part. Treat me like a kid and I'd slowly disrespect you. But go unethical, I judge you in my heart, and I guess that'll be the last trip we'd go together. I'd proudly be excluded, maybe it's a good thing orange didn't go, they might have conflicts.

I'm so happy to be home. It's not that all the trips sucked. It's just...... Living a life without trips are tiring enough. It makes me return home and feel the house full of peacefulness. It makes me miss my grandma's cooking and my sister's mess.

In this trip, I think I connect the most with hoodie. He's a very innocent guy. I'm happy he started telling me things when he was sober. And he told me even more when he got tipsy. We drank, twice. The second time, I took his drinks. We weren't that good at lying dices, but I didn't wanna lose just to let him drink lesser. I'd rather let him lose and I take his drinks. I don't get how he gets tipsy tho. Five bottles, and the two boys drank with ice. How did he get tipsy??? He confessed to me tho. He confessed that he's given up. So it's cool that he tells. Thanks for telling me. I knew them earlier anyway, but it takes balls to do that. You're innocent AF, but definitely manly than the couple. I hope life doesn't turn you into a jerk. And like you say, let's stay friends. We're that cool.

I connect more with shell too. She's too adorable. In among five of us, I think the most manly ones are actually shell and I. I mean, mentally. Physically, of course, hoodie and class rep's bf win. Then it'll be me. Haha. I do hope we stay in touch. 😭😭

So when people ask, how's your holiday? How's Jap? How's Penang? I'd say, it's awesome. It was awesome, just if we ignore the shits....

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