Farewell... (Diary Logs #1)

Hello Readers! This is my FIRST 'Diary Logs' post. It is especially important as it is for my best friend who is one of my favourite human-alien on this planet!! Here's to our friendship & many more years to come. Let distance never become a barrier & just some foolish thing we laugh over!




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I remember the day she had called me up. She plainly said, "I'm going to Delhi." I plainly thought, "That's nice. You're going on another trip!" Then she slowly completed the sentence, "I mean, I am moving to Delhi."

That moment was the worst one I have felt in my life. It was worse than a breakup. My best friend was moving across the country, leaving me behind, it felt unfair. It was like someone had punched me in the face and I couldn't recover from this blow.

It felt like someone had taken away my security blanket.

It felt like I was falling in a baseless pit.

It felt like tagging her in memes without ever getting a response. (Yes!)

It felt like a LOT of things.
But, most of all, I just couldn't feel anything at all. I was in shock.

Ever since I heard that, I went into a flash back mode. I couldn't help but think about all our memories together. I remembered a thousand different things that I'd miss about her. I remembered the times I stayed at her place and how much we enjoyed those slumber parties! I remembered how we first met and how easily we bonded, then became distant, then came close, then eventually became inseparable. I remembered how touched she was when I wrote something for her for one of her important moments in life. I also know she might have been sad when I didn't write anything for the most important moment for her life that followed. It touched me when she said that she had stayed in Mumbai for an extended period only for me. I remembered her every day in the rings she gave me which were engraved with the words 'Best', 'Friends', 'Forever'...

I remember the last time I met her. We stayed up talking all night, about things that mattered & things that didn't. About lost causes & not so lost ones too. About dreams & aspirations. About friendship & love. About having each other’s' back. It was that day and there's today. It's 2 AM. I'm struggling with this post, which is supposed to come off pretty easily, but important things take time. But then, I call her up, and we're talking about so many things at the same time, like old days. And it feels like nothing has changed. It feels just like the countless times we've spent together; talking, reminiscing, connecting with songs, getting high over the lyrical beauty & sadness of music. It feels right. It feels like us; M & C. And just like that, it feels like she's sitting right next to me while we're having a little dance party and there's no distance separating us.

Even though you're far away, this distance has brought us closer. You're my best friend. You're my soul mate. I understand your reasons for going away & I am beyond happy that you're doing what you're doing. You should remind yourself your purpose of being there every day. You are going to be a hero! Follow your dreams. Be brave. You always have been! You just don't know it. You have got the chance to remake your life. Not everyone does, darling. Give it your best shot! And make yourself happy! Just, be happy!

PS: Don't forget me. I love you! x.

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