.

I can feel it everytime I tell him to give up.

It's an instant cold, and numbness everywhere. And I get this lightheaded feeling. Like whenever I get a fever. It's dizzy, confusing. Everything in this world is annoying. Like I need to lie down and kill myself. So I have to turn off all the sounds. I've got to stay somewhere alone.

If it's too late, the sounds are necessary tho.
To cover mine.

Please make it stop. Please, make it stop. What would ever make it stop?

It's going to be like that for a long time, at least for the deal it's four years.

Four years is actually so long. How to live like that?

It's gonna be like that for awhile. It'll be temporary. Even the worst pain fades. So it'll be over. Just wait. Patiently.

Cuz I know. One day, just one day I will succeed. And I don't regret, because it's for his own good. It's for his own good. Yeah. It's better like this.

The worst things you can do is drag. Drag, and give the other person hope while you don't even know what's with your heart.

Maybe wood was like that. He didn't mean to make me this way. He left me alone to overthink and fuck myself up because he was confused himself. He didn't mean to break me. Yeah.

I thought I handled these well. I thought I wouldn't do whatever wood did, cuz it hurts. I gave wood a direct "leave", but I kept moon hanging. Like how wood kept me hanging.

Look what I've turned into..

You don't wanna be like me.

I don't want to make you so shitty. Cuz my life is so fucked up. I really hate it. idk what to do. Can't you just tell me what to do?????

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