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I realized there are certain words that can make the entire me go mad. I'm always mad, it's such a normal thing that going mad doesn't surprise me anymore, it doesn't surprise anyone anymore. How long it's been like this?
Why are you 24/7 sed?
Because I dw to be born.
Well you're borned already so love your godamn life.
Which word?
I dun geddit. What do I want? What's wrong with me?
I've been studying. Progress was fast just now. Just after one big fight with my fucked up roommate, my progress became so fast I finished a chapter. Then I scrolled fb and saw this photo. Then it stopped again.
I've been thinking. This friday, should I even go?
What's wrong with me? I wanna scold tf out of you. Why did you leave me making myself go crazy like that? And try to fix it? What right do you have, to fix it? Am I a toy? Do you wreck me, then fix me whenever you want? What am I ? I'm so frustrated! I'm so tired! Why do I have to take a fucking towel with me like that? Why should I ever be afraid of anyone walking into my room seeing me crying like a fucked up ? Why am I even fucked up?
Stop bringing a towel with me. Stop thinking about him. Maybe I have to pretend that GUy never existed! Maybe that's the key to turn back to normal. BUT HOW?>
Before drinking also sed, after drinking also sed, is there anything wrong with you?
I dunno
What's wrong with you?
I dunno
What are we talking about?
Moon wasn't stressing me out. Wood wasn't stressing me out. I was stressing me. My fault I didn't give up right away after he ignored me. My fault, for swallowing my pride, kept on making stupid excuses just to wait for him. Until when? Until I can't take it anymore and go mad?
Is this what you want?
She said, it's like Judo. You have to learn to fall before you learn how to fight.
Is it supposed to be this painful?
Mom, do you know why yh didn't get good results for spm?
Why
Because she dove into a relationship. that's why. So you parents should stop us.
I object. Yh didn't get good results for spm because she fucked up her relationship. Yh didn't ever have good results. But she had ok results for spm, because her ex inspired her to work hard. If not, she'd be getting fucking terrible results. Get that?
I'm still learning to fall. Maybe I just forgotten to use the mat. That's why it hurts af.
It's gonna hurt like hell if you take things too seriously. Right? So I decided I stop taking it serious. But it became so wrong! It's wrong.
I am not, sad over my ex. I'm sad over what I've become. And I duno what to do about myself. I really have no idea. I can just blog, like right now, like usual, then start breaking down for no reason. How is that normal? What is wrong with me?
I duno.
Why are you 24/7 sed?
Because I dw to be born.
Well you're borned already so love your godamn life.
Which word?
I dun geddit. What do I want? What's wrong with me?
I've been studying. Progress was fast just now. Just after one big fight with my fucked up roommate, my progress became so fast I finished a chapter. Then I scrolled fb and saw this photo. Then it stopped again.
I've been thinking. This friday, should I even go?
What's wrong with me? I wanna scold tf out of you. Why did you leave me making myself go crazy like that? And try to fix it? What right do you have, to fix it? Am I a toy? Do you wreck me, then fix me whenever you want? What am I ? I'm so frustrated! I'm so tired! Why do I have to take a fucking towel with me like that? Why should I ever be afraid of anyone walking into my room seeing me crying like a fucked up ? Why am I even fucked up?
Stop bringing a towel with me. Stop thinking about him. Maybe I have to pretend that GUy never existed! Maybe that's the key to turn back to normal. BUT HOW?>
Before drinking also sed, after drinking also sed, is there anything wrong with you?
I dunno
What's wrong with you?
I dunno
What are we talking about?
Moon wasn't stressing me out. Wood wasn't stressing me out. I was stressing me. My fault I didn't give up right away after he ignored me. My fault, for swallowing my pride, kept on making stupid excuses just to wait for him. Until when? Until I can't take it anymore and go mad?
Is this what you want?
She said, it's like Judo. You have to learn to fall before you learn how to fight.
Is it supposed to be this painful?
Mom, do you know why yh didn't get good results for spm?
Why
Because she dove into a relationship. that's why. So you parents should stop us.
I object. Yh didn't get good results for spm because she fucked up her relationship. Yh didn't ever have good results. But she had ok results for spm, because her ex inspired her to work hard. If not, she'd be getting fucking terrible results. Get that?
I'm still learning to fall. Maybe I just forgotten to use the mat. That's why it hurts af.
It's gonna hurt like hell if you take things too seriously. Right? So I decided I stop taking it serious. But it became so wrong! It's wrong.
I am not, sad over my ex. I'm sad over what I've become. And I duno what to do about myself. I really have no idea. I can just blog, like right now, like usual, then start breaking down for no reason. How is that normal? What is wrong with me?
I duno.
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