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I had to spam.

I was looking at the things I starred in WA. Why did I starred this? I tapped in, I read, and I can't believe it. You sent me this, and I didn't stop further damage? What was I thinking. I did told you to stop a few habits because I felt uncomfortable with them. You listened then continued the habits. And I told you again.

I duno what was I doing. I'm sorry.

I will never ever let this happen, unless I have 100% confirmed that the person is joking. Like ET calling me wife. Those are definitely jokes.

Actually I was a little bit sure about it.

When you threw a 2 to me, and again and again, I was pretty sure. It's either you hate me, or you have nothing towards me. Because the last time we drank together, you took drinks for me instead of making me drink!

Did you know how many times I've changed your conversation to customized then back to uncustomized settings? Sometimes I want to know when you talk to me. Sometimes, I don't. I don't want to reply you that fast and make myself seem desperate or nice. Idk. Sometimes... I just duno if I should. What are you? I wasn't sure. I kept convincing myself, you became a great listener and I could talk to you abt everything because you liked me but I thought we were potential besties. Then? When it was cleared, what are we? Customized. Uncustomized. Thank you for clearing things up, I guess I know what to do now.

Looking back at what I starred for Wood's messages.... They sting. If the star function was available since we were together, I would've starred so many so so many. And I'd cry each time I read them back.

Look at what he said to me....
"I just don't want anything bad happening to you."
"I read all"

I probably unstarred a lot. But... These few remainings still..
Suddenly mentioning something he said to me when he loved me, triggers a lot. Hahah.

He was so sweet.

Oh stop it, you.

Wood I'm so glad I'm forgetting many things. I'm thinking about the things you said to me. I thought about some. I can picture lots of memories. But words became blurred.

I'm thankful that you stopped trying to keep us in contact. We still could see each other's fb, snaps, but we don't cross path anymore so far. I wish we stay this way. I wish, it stays this way.

Everyone that's supposed to be gone would be gone. What's gonna happen when I go for degree? I duno. I hope it'll be ok. I hope the people I know will still be crazy and awesome. I hope pineapple stays here longer.

"I have nothing to lose."
No, I have so much to lose. But I'll be accepting. Accept that it's gonna hurt for a little while, then I'll get over it. Accept that in life, no matter how scared we are, it's still gonna happen, and we'll get tru it.

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