Bribe

Today started great. I was actually laying in bed smelling my phone when mom barged in. So I went and followed her to her room. My parents are both so cute. They were packing luggages for the China trip. Dad smiled a lot. So I'm pretty sure mom didn't tell him anything yet.

And when he went to bathe, there goes me and my bribing skills.

I guess I did a very good job convincing her that we don't drink often, and it's really really just occasionally. And that I usually don't end up this badly, it's because I'm sick! Not a lie at all.

Then then then grandma popped out yelling about indomee residues in the sink. In other words, my whole family knows already. Very luckily, dad didn't suspect much. He said, why did you went for badminton when you're not feeling well? Heh. Because badminton is love. Because badminton might make things better a bit.

But I failed bribing my sister. She probably hates me so much omg. I need a long term bribe. Mom's easier than sis. Sis is sly, and mean at times.

I'm still sorry for ruining things. This time I'm gonna use it. I regret drinking in thaaat state. Trust me, plain water makes me wanna throw up too, let's not talk about beer.

I really hope my sister forgets this.

Oh god. Did I mention why I smelled my phone? I swear I washed and rubbed my phone cover, but there's still the smell of beer.

Please don't make this a significant thing... Fml

Until I saw my broken jug, today started great.
My jug...............
I swear my heart breaks when I saw it. Fuck. How can this happen.... I brought the refilled jug upstairs last night, but it was cracked and empty this morning. Where did all that water went? Where did I break the jug? I don't remember water spilling on me. Did it spilled on me????? I'm not sure. I have no memory about that. I just remember sitting on the floor feeling nauseous.

That's how fucked shits went.

I broke my jug............ I'm gonna remember this day forever. Forever. 5.5.17, not a hard date. I'm gonna remember this, and make sure it doesn't happen anymore. It's not gonna happen anymore.

The jug is my love. T.T

I was bathing and thinking about it. What happened last night? I think I didn't wash my hair with shampoo, cuz we actually ran out of shampoo and in that state of me, I wouldn't have a brain to get new shampoo. Plus my hair feels so weird today. I don't think I used soap too. Did I? I think it's weird with these memory loss. I mean. I can remember tiny bits overall. But don't remember a lot too. What, I banged on the door? Did I? I don't have memory of that. I remember I went inside, then... I talked to mom, like one or two sentences but idk what I said. Then I probably went upstairs with the jug? The weird thing is,,, the jug was on the floor in the morning. I usually put it on my wooden stairs, or on my DESK. IF I really did put on my desk, with that bad crack, my laptop's gonna die. All my books, my notes should be gone. REALLY Thank god I put it somewhere safe. 

Another conflict. Just now, I found where all that water went. I had a small plastic bag holding my extra T-shirt I was supposed to wear after badminton. THE WATER WENT THERE. The fuck? If I put the jug on the floor, it should leaked onto the floor. All that water should've wet the wooden parquet. I should know. But no that didn't happen. my extra shirt was wet! Why???? Since the water is finally found, means... means I didn't drop it on the way stumbling to my room. Unless I dropped in when I got into my room? If no, then I probably hit the wall when I was walking upstairs. Which makes alot of sense too, but the stairs wasn't wet. Everything's not making sense to me. 

I threw up at the door. I was regret AF for not making another ten steps to the toilet. Really. Why..... I think I immediately cleaned it up. Yeah. I was nervous cuz sis turned on her light and talked to me. The moment I knew I fucked up. I hated myself so bad, Idk what to do, so I probably texted you peeps. You guys have very different reaction. Loong said "Omg are u ok? Omg u r drunk." Moon didn't react much. ET said "That's a good start." LMAO how was that a good start? That's a bad ending. Lol. 

I had a quite ok sleep. I don't remember drying my hair. So I slept on the damn pillow with wet hair? Oh my god. I can't believe myself. I remember swearing a lot. I'm very sorry. But please, trust me, that's just me whenever I math. That's me when I'm having exam. Why else did I isolated myself from humans when I study? Cuz I swear, I scold. It was just stress. Heh. Omg. 

Yh don't be dumb next time. No drinking when sick. 

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