Throwing up

I think this is the last time I'll be drinking. I threw up in my room. First and the last time. My sister couldn't stand the smell. I cleaned up ASAP but it didn't make her come back. When my dad wakes up, I'm probably not gonna go out anymore.

I'm dead. I talked to ET, moon, Loong abt this. I can't believe he's still awake. He didn't even join us. I knew I was in a bad bad form today.

Please get well asap.

Ok I will, thanks Loong.. At the same time, I'm screwed. My sister went downstairs to sleep. Just because I threw up in our room. My stomach still feels like shit. Probably because I'm sick. I'm fucking regret that I drank with them and ignored the fact that I'm sick. I fucking regret.

If because of what my sister did today, and I started
having crazy stupid curfews,...... Idk what else can I say.

I screwed up..... There's ntg i can say.

7am. Usually I wake.up earlier to insomnia. I guess I'm too wasted to do that lol. I checked under my bed, she's here! Maybe I can make her shut up? My parents are going to China very soon, and she has terrible memory.

Honestly I couldn't make them getting blamed by my parents.

I already felt like throwing up BEFORE drinking. That's a fact. Another fact was just I shouldn't drink when I feel like shit. Shouldn't drink when the fever's not completely gone. Shouldn't drink when I already felt drunk without drinking.

Yeah... and I didn't even reach my limit.
My limit's not eight and a half.
My limit's twelve. The best form I could ever have, thirteen. 

Tbh I still feel like throwing up. Now. Fuck my life.

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