When everything's fucked
It's worrisome. The whatsapp updates.
I'm worried about failing math, but I'm excited to party at the same time.
I'm worried about grandpa in Ipoh but I'm looking forward to training, madly.
I'm worried about mom and dad returning earlier so that I have to cancel all my plans but I do want to go back Ipoh with them just before anything bad happens.
I don't want them to come home early because of the plans that I have, but I do hope grandpa holds on and stay stronger so we could go see him, or just suddenly get better for good.
I want to do math. But it's weird, I could do some, couldn't do some. Stupid fucking probability. My efficiency wasn't good today, wasn't bad either. I did a few past years. Which was so much better than preparation of P3 cuz I couldn't even do one paper. I'm worried about passing math, but. There's so many things to worry for.
My throat was better for awhile, but today it feels like it's not getting better. I have one pill left. One. What's wrong with me ? Is it not killing them? Are they developing resistance? I did as he said. One in the morning, one at night. Altho sometimes I didn't really take them after meals. Cuz I skipped meals. But that was no big deal right? It's suggested to take after meals just so we don't irritate our stomach. But they aren't giving me any side effects. I'm not having any slight discomfort after each pill. I'm worried about karaoke. Would anything go wrong? Is moon gonna ffk? Am I really ok to sing?
If I go Ipoh right after BH's baby's full moon, am I having enough time to practice guitar? Today I went to class. Know what Mr Fung said? He said, everything that's necessary has already been said. Of course I show no improvements. I fucked everything. I threw everything aside for exams. Even our badminton club's work, I've threw them aside for a month plus. I told Voon, I'm terribly sorry, but I'm gonna delay. I swear I will do them after the exams. I told Mr Fung. I'm very very helpless about the progress in Grade 8 preparation, but I swear, next week you'll hear me playing better.
I'm sorry that I couldn't do everything well. But will I have enough time to practice if I go Ipoh? I promised. I promised him, I promised voon. I fucked so many things. Exams literally made me went mad. I'm thirsty. I wanna fucking get drunk and forget everything. Nah jk. I just wanna chill a little. I duno what to do, tbh. There's so many things.
Grandpa can you please get well? Please. When Jiu2 sent us your reports, I do understand. Urea level high, Creatinine high too. Kidney not functioning well. It wasn't that hard to understand. You're a strong man. You can kick those bacteria's asses. Come on. You should be able to get plenty of rest. So please get well. Everyone's anxious about your condition. You probably don't know. But. Haiz.
Mom called me today. She said I sound better. Duh better than on Monday? Of course, I was having prep for P3. Stressed AF. I'm ok now. But I'm actually not that ok. I duno if I can pass my stats. I didn't have enough prep. But I don't think doing the questions work. The questions are so fancy. They come out differently, weirdly. If I don't know how to do, I just don't know. Despite the amount of work I've practiced, I don't know how to do a lot, permutations and combinations stuff. Etc. And I have lots of careless mistakes.
Am I going to pass math ? I don't know. How about the one I resit? If I get better than previously, I should be able to get a 60^. Is that enough to fill up the terrible form I did for P3? Is tomorrow's stats enough ? I don't know. I'm really fucked. Can I pass my guitar exam? The fuck? Since when I'm starting to say "Pass" ?
I aimed for distinction all the time. I got it for both Grade3 and 5. Can I get a distinction for Grade 8? I wanna be top scorer too. Can I do that? Three weeks time for prep, can I even train up stamina for barchords? I'm literally fucked, even after exams. How can I even party?
I'm worried about failing math, but I'm excited to party at the same time.
I'm worried about grandpa in Ipoh but I'm looking forward to training, madly.
I'm worried about mom and dad returning earlier so that I have to cancel all my plans but I do want to go back Ipoh with them just before anything bad happens.
I don't want them to come home early because of the plans that I have, but I do hope grandpa holds on and stay stronger so we could go see him, or just suddenly get better for good.
I want to do math. But it's weird, I could do some, couldn't do some. Stupid fucking probability. My efficiency wasn't good today, wasn't bad either. I did a few past years. Which was so much better than preparation of P3 cuz I couldn't even do one paper. I'm worried about passing math, but. There's so many things to worry for.
My throat was better for awhile, but today it feels like it's not getting better. I have one pill left. One. What's wrong with me ? Is it not killing them? Are they developing resistance? I did as he said. One in the morning, one at night. Altho sometimes I didn't really take them after meals. Cuz I skipped meals. But that was no big deal right? It's suggested to take after meals just so we don't irritate our stomach. But they aren't giving me any side effects. I'm not having any slight discomfort after each pill. I'm worried about karaoke. Would anything go wrong? Is moon gonna ffk? Am I really ok to sing?
If I go Ipoh right after BH's baby's full moon, am I having enough time to practice guitar? Today I went to class. Know what Mr Fung said? He said, everything that's necessary has already been said. Of course I show no improvements. I fucked everything. I threw everything aside for exams. Even our badminton club's work, I've threw them aside for a month plus. I told Voon, I'm terribly sorry, but I'm gonna delay. I swear I will do them after the exams. I told Mr Fung. I'm very very helpless about the progress in Grade 8 preparation, but I swear, next week you'll hear me playing better.
I'm sorry that I couldn't do everything well. But will I have enough time to practice if I go Ipoh? I promised. I promised him, I promised voon. I fucked so many things. Exams literally made me went mad. I'm thirsty. I wanna fucking get drunk and forget everything. Nah jk. I just wanna chill a little. I duno what to do, tbh. There's so many things.
Grandpa can you please get well? Please. When Jiu2 sent us your reports, I do understand. Urea level high, Creatinine high too. Kidney not functioning well. It wasn't that hard to understand. You're a strong man. You can kick those bacteria's asses. Come on. You should be able to get plenty of rest. So please get well. Everyone's anxious about your condition. You probably don't know. But. Haiz.
Mom called me today. She said I sound better. Duh better than on Monday? Of course, I was having prep for P3. Stressed AF. I'm ok now. But I'm actually not that ok. I duno if I can pass my stats. I didn't have enough prep. But I don't think doing the questions work. The questions are so fancy. They come out differently, weirdly. If I don't know how to do, I just don't know. Despite the amount of work I've practiced, I don't know how to do a lot, permutations and combinations stuff. Etc. And I have lots of careless mistakes.
Am I going to pass math ? I don't know. How about the one I resit? If I get better than previously, I should be able to get a 60^. Is that enough to fill up the terrible form I did for P3? Is tomorrow's stats enough ? I don't know. I'm really fucked. Can I pass my guitar exam? The fuck? Since when I'm starting to say "Pass" ?
I aimed for distinction all the time. I got it for both Grade3 and 5. Can I get a distinction for Grade 8? I wanna be top scorer too. Can I do that? Three weeks time for prep, can I even train up stamina for barchords? I'm literally fucked, even after exams. How can I even party?
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