Scott garden

Sometimes I question myself. Should I go? I have exams soon. I should probably not. I should say, no.

Meanwhile..........
"Jommmm." No hesitations.

When ET said it's cancelled, I thought fate led me the way. So I threw my phone aside and went to do my bio notes, spamming EDM again. A sudden urge made me check my phone. There it goes. Two miss call and a bunch of messages. It's on again. Let's go.

Yh, where's your little bottle?
How do you know I brought it?
You always did.

I'm proud to say I'm quite freaking sober this time. I kept count. It was crazy. The Singapore dudes are so exteme. Gold too was there. The second time seeing him after our birthday celebration. He's extreme. He said, half glass each lose. Ooh great. But there was once I chose three aces. Aces means drink. Three aces means.... One and a half glass. Okay. But gold took half for me.

ET told me to pick a song and made me sing. Oh gosh he triggered my singk mood.

我懷念的。

All is well, I've got to know three peeps. They're much older. Oh gosh really much older. One thing is they drink with ice. I don't really like ice. Pure beer is good enough. Pure everything is good.

It was cool. How they said, they'd do this and that if anything happens to me while they let me accompany gold's ride. But I guess he was sober. He said he'd let me drive if he wasn't ok enough to. Which is good. Then he told me about his sister. And him too. Hey yuk chaiian! Gime five man. Our conversation made me motivated tbh. He told me that his sister did science too and still struggling to get a related job. That's quite typical. And she has a phd. Wow. Makes me worry. I was thinking about getting a phd man. Damn.

Mom texted me. I'm relieved that I wasn't at the bistro at that time. Murni is good. Murni is love. They made me eat. So I snapped mom some pictures of chicken. Life's good. Everyone's cool. I kinda like that.

I spoke canto. It was freaking weird but I tried to sound normal. And they said, "Hey yh you spoke canto!" Yeah I did. I always knew how to. But I'm just afraid that I might accidentally embarrass myself too crazily.... And there goes some crazy ass topics.

The last thing ET said to me kinda got me.

Do you have anything towards Loong?

Do I ? All this time I told myself it's not a thing. It's something special because I had a nightmare about him being in danger. It's something that made me cry waking up. Something that made me checked on him every day in every short period. But that isn't exactly a thing, right?

I had that nightmare long ago before we were close enough. And I've said it out during ET's birthday. But is it a thing?

I'm not sure bruh. Maybe. Idk...
You gotta be sure about yourself.

Ahhhh.

Let's see how things go. I hope it's just nothing.

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