In the middle

Coughs.

I thought my coughs would go away before I could start taking the antibiotics doctor prescribed. Welllllll nope. Stupid fucking immune system.

Today is a very unproductive day. I went mad trying to figure out math. Then, I gave up and started revising chem. I'm not on schedule. I'm literally fucked.

P3's gonna be as screwed as during trials. I might not fucking pass my math.

Wanna play badminton? Sure.
Wanna drink next mon? Sure.

Honestly! I'd go if P3 starts at 12 something. But nah it didn't want me to go, so it starts at 8.45am. I know I'd fail p3, but.... I'd make sure I went to sit for it and give it a try. So no way I'll let hangovers or shits ruin it.

Look look I'm still a rational student.

Today's badminton was awesome. I had enough sleep, so I had quite an ok form. I still think my footwork ruined a big part, but... Today I covered some of them, and some covered me. Some of them disappeared for such a long time. I think it's cool we can talk. I mean. Despite the huge age difference. Lol they asked me, what do peeps on my age do? What do they play?

I....... Don't...... Know......... Ohmygod.
I remember what pineapple told me last time seeing her.
"I think we're more than our actual age."
Right after she came back from aussie... Right after I joined ET squad, everything's different. Yeah we hang out with older people. But it's fun, right? It's exciting all the time. It's a lot to learn too. Being with this bunch makes me feel really young here, and makes me feel old whenever I'm in class.

It's crazy how ET can come up with those kinds of extreme jokes. It's not scary anymore, I play along instead. Today they started hard selling V. V is a nice guy. Yes I know that, I think he's a nice guy since that day. Since our birthday celebration.

ET kept saying he's old. Hmph. Don't ever. They're not old. They're still young and crazy. He said, they're gonna train me until I turn 21, then it'll be my turn to take drinks for them. Wow. I don't even think I can survive that long.

People say, 21 years old would be the craziest birthday ever. It's gonna be a day everyone gets drunk. And they wanna make me the last one standing. Lmao. Is that even possible? ET said there's so many things that they'd bring me to explore after I reach 21. Trips, casinos, etc. Wow. I'm looking forward to trips. But sometimes I feel like a little parasite. I haven't even finish studies, and look at me going wild with money that doesn't belong to me. I can't do that. I needa grow up and earn then play with the amount I can afford. But... That's so long to go..... Looking at them, I don't wanna grow up that fast. I actually like being a student too. It's just... Idk. I'm supposed to be the good girl always staying home to study. I'm not supposed to be drinking and all.

Haih. Sometimes it bothers me. Am I supposed to be living the way I'm living now? Am I supposed to be going wild right now?

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