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Violin class went ok.

I was walking to the class, thinking bout what I told Loong yesterday right after eating. So I have to tell him? I have to tell him. Trust me, I was nervous af. Firstly I told him to treat us all students equally in terms of fee. Then, throughout the class I tried to stay still. Look away and focus on playing, and rest lesser. It worked. He hasn't had the chance. I was distant too, probably. At the end, I didn't get to tell him. But at least I feel safe throughout this session. Phew.

Then I'm thinking about LA. Ok I'll be gone for a week. Maybe I should ask moon out for supper. Maybe I should start packing. I've been anxious over degree shits. I've been thinking about everyone, like I'm about to die soon. I swiped thru all the photos and smiled crazily for no reason.

Life is gonna be fine. Ugh. I'm worried bout LA too. What if that girl is in our group? I'm so not gonna spill anything. The only damn reason I've agreed on going was to get over wood. Mom signed me up last last year probably year end. Now there's no reason I go tbh. But maybe I can figure out degree shits there? Yeah.

I noticed whenever I frustrate over something, I sit there. I try to figure it out for hours, then I take a long nap, and wake up even shittier.

Ooh I am so, so dead.

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